I have experienced chronic depression (as well as complex PTSD and self-harm ideation) for MANY years...most of my life. For reference, my family and most of my friends do not understand these struggles (and never have). I have been on the receiving end of many hurtful comments and have also had to hide the fact that I've accessed treatment (medication, therapy, etc.), due to their judgement and stigma. Essentially my family has said they don't want me to be crazy or to tear apart the family. I don't want those things either. But I'm sad. Very very sad, in fact. As well as all of the other things that depression entails. And I would just like some support.

People in my life certainly won't understand. Maybe someone here will. I'm glad you're all here and thank you for listening.